Just This Much...

I have always had a stiff and inflexible body even as a child. And I had always thought not being able to touch my toes is normal. Until one day, when my PE teacher conducted a fitness test which includes the sit & reach test that I realised I was not normal.

Perhaps that was the underlaying cause. I did exercises like swimming, running, badminton and etc. but never stretches because it will reveal my abnormality. Furthermore I felt sorry for myself, for not being able to pull through easy poses so I shy away for a very long time.

Until a few months before my 30th birthday (in 2013), prompted by the urge to reclaim my shoulder, arm and wrist ache which stemed from prolong usage of computer and mouse that I finally decide to put aside the old grudge against my body's incapability and put my feet down to test the waters of stretching through Yoga Studio.

Cheap, easy to understand and convenient. This app acts like my personal guru, encouraging and reminding me to flex my body more everyday. I was practicing yoga 30 mins a day, 4 times a week in my own living area and I felt great. My wrist stopped hurting and I was able to touch my first three toes after years of being as stiff as a board!

Though in lesser frequency, I continued yoga throughout my chemo treatment period. Although I didn't make much progress in my flexibility because of muscle aches from treatment, but I figured as long as it's not backward progress I should let go of my expectation, go easy and try to enjoy every stretches.

By practicing yoga, I don't think/ hope that I will one day be a contortionist or yoga guru. All I hope for is my shoulder and arm to stop hurting... ...and that I will be able to touch all my toes without bending my knees... Just this much is all I am hoping...


Stupidgale is a Sino-Kadazan office nerd during the day and leisure blogger by night. She enjoys writting about everything under the sun and is currently living in Singapore with her family (including teddygirl the corgi).

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